Saturday, 8 June 2013
I’m calling time on this blog. At least for now.
I want to be able to encourage and entertain people, not depress them so until I turn that corner, it’s good bye.
Recently I’ve had quite a few messages basically telling me to get on with it. I’d love to, believe me. The biggest problem I have is that without my mother, my life has a huge great gaping hole in it and I’ve no idea what to fill it with. Imagine if you will that you wake up one morning to find that you have no siblings, no children, or grandchildren, no parents, no lifelong friends, no lover/husband/partner, no office or work colleagues. What difference would that make to how you feel about things?
The annoying thing for me is that I focussed my entire life on my parents, trying to get them to love/encourage/like me. I failed (please don’t tell me that all mothers love their daughters because they don’t).
I’m sure that one day, soon, I will find whatever I need to fill the gap in my life. Right now I’m doing everything I can to make that happen but, until then, I’m better off keeping my thoughts to myself.
Time to go sit in the sunshine and cuddle the dog...